This past week has been a doozy. In fact, this past year has been one giant shit sandwich. Last November, I lost a very contentious legal battle with my ex-wife regarding custody and visitation due to [sic] legaleeze. That was a huge blow because I had the evidence but COVID and the systems in place to protect my kids failed at every level. Then, my wife’s Father became ill, lived with us, nearly died, stayed with us while we provided him care – the ambulance ride that took him away was the last time I saw him alive. I had back surgery just two months ago and I am about to have an injection for a herniated disc in my neck. In just a few days I am going to test for my PMP exam and I am straight wiped.
This weekend I am on a weekend trip to NYC with my wife and son and although my neck is in brutal pain – us being all together is amazing. Knowing this trip will have an impact on my son’s life is worth every painful step even though I am technically here for my wife’s birthday weekend.
But seeing all the people, the vastness of NYC both out and up, it makes you think about the microscopic impact one human being has and the ego to match. It reminds me of a trending theory that we are living in a simulation. I wouldn’t even know how to describe the purpose of the simulation but for any other reason than being a Monte Carlo Simulation.
Monte Carlo simulations are used to model the probability of different outcomes in a process that cannot easily be predicted due to the intervention of random variables. It is a technique used to understand the impact of risk and uncertainty in prediction and forecasting models. A Monte Carlo simulation can be used to tackle a range of problems in virtually every field such as finance, engineering, supply chain, and science. It is also referred to as a multiple probability simulation. Life’s physical and emotional requirements along with news worthy events make it likely we are living in a Monte Carlo Simulation.
It all makes sense because in order for some to live, others must suffer.